38: Actually I was thinking, as I always am when your writing comes my way, that I could keep reading for a long time.
25-27: Me, too. Except peas🫛 and snow ❄️.
I can’t remember the name of the show that was made before Endeavour. It’s about Morse’s protege who was with him throughout the original Inspector Morse series. “Lewis” maybe? I liked it a lot, though Endeavour most.
You are a remarkable human. Every time the world through your perception comes to me, I am grateful for it.
I do think our loved ones visit thru electronics. The portal is opened thru energy. The lamp my father sat next to when he visited blinks on and off at random times. Infrequently enough that I know it’s not a wiring issue. I think he’s letting me know his atoms are swirling ‘round. Thanks for sharing your life with us. Curlin.
(also, have you watched Heartstopper on Netflix? I’m so far away from my teens that it’s not relatable at all, but i love watching this sweet little uncomplicated teen romance unfold. in England! and everyone’s gay which sometimes feels like a stretch but also it’s so nice that i don’t really care.)
i also love that you got to spend time with your mother, in time bending space.
I hate peas, too. I have tried and just can’t get into the “group nap” situation of Yoga Nidra. The dressing room lights/mirror is a brutality, too. I’m here in the present and (supposed to be) grateful (what a perfect way to say that) for all sorts of things. Your writing always leaves me wanting more.
I’m home after a long emotional weekend sitting on my cool and breezy porch with seemingly no one around here on this beautiful world and I wish for you nothing but this kind of peace. 💚
Sending love to you and Sophie as you experience being 60 years old and everything leading up to that and 60 roses.
Yoga Nidra was introduced to me in the fall of 2007 and so I bought Richard Miller's book with CD and have benefitted from Yoga Nidra ever since. It is heartening to know you are benefitting from Yoga Nidra, too.
I recently rediscovered, on my book shelf, "The Old Woman and the Wave" by Shelley Jackson. It is a stunning piece of art in both story telling and illustration...and it's supposed to be a children's book! Not at all. It spoke to my soul and I am now that woman riding the wave off to "Away!" Or trying to be anyway. Nothing much else to do in this caregiving life but to trust and flow (and maybe be really tired....). Happy 60th. That little book might help a little bit.
I too have gotten messages via my computer from a place beyond my understanding the first year or two after my husband died. Rarely now. But still comforting and mysterious and powerful. Carry on dear Elizabeth and Sophie.
Oh Elizabeth, so many thoughts and feelings on MY end. First up, watch 1883! (the prequel to Yellowstone--which I could not finish) with Tim McGraw and Faith Hill as pioneers. So gorgeous. I too watched all of Endeavor and loved it. Also, anything with Nicola Walker, but I love British crime shows, mostly because, very few to no guns, mostly psychological. Also, aging. We can all go on and on...and thankfully most of us do. (see what I did there?). Also, totally with you on politics these days. I. Just. Can't. The opportunist, smarmy Ramaswamy, the "see my practiced mug shot face former "guy", and the disgusting SCOTUS folks who can't get their ethics unwound from their...I won't write that last word here. But overall, I too and am looking for what is alive and beautiful in this moment. Heard a podcast/interview/ on the Hidden Brain with a guy who talks about strategizing vs. waiting for joyful things to happen. Worth listening to if you can, it's pretty recent. I love Shankar Vedantam...see, there is one cool human! And mostly I try to live in the poetry world. Have you read Arthur Sze's Sight Lines? Or Kate Farris' Standing in the Forest of Being Alive? if not, do. Ok, sending lots of flowers to you. xo
Thanks, Suzanne! I’ll look into your suggestions! And YES to Kate Faris’ poetry collection. I recently went to a reading in my neighborhood bookstore and heard her and her husband!
God, what a beautiful, long chunk of thoughts and feelings and observations and life. Thank you. Your #22 struck me hard. I would do anything to avoid going to a department store dressing room. Anything. The mirrors...the horror.
It's always nice to read your writing, to see how you're doing, to reconnect with you. Do you think we'll ever meet? In real life? I hope so. I'm actually getting a passport this month, so who knows:)
My body has morphed into my mother's body, complete with strange lumps and bumps on my skin that I pick at. I'm with you on the whole, I think I can't do it anymore. I have a four year old, again, but it's the new dog that's killing me, or is that called transference?
You read much more erudite books than I do. The last good book I read was "Remarkably Bright Creatures" by Shelby Van Pelt. I fell in love with an octopus.
Take care Elizabeth, take care of yourself I mean. I turn 61 in a few weeks. WTF! I often forget how old I am until I see myself in a mirror. People see an old woman now, pushing Miss Katie's wheelchair. I've lived a lifetime now and it feels strange. So often it feels like things are on repeat. It's like, hey, I've seen this before, I know how this ends. It's a strange feeling.
38: Actually I was thinking, as I always am when your writing comes my way, that I could keep reading for a long time.
25-27: Me, too. Except peas🫛 and snow ❄️.
I can’t remember the name of the show that was made before Endeavour. It’s about Morse’s protege who was with him throughout the original Inspector Morse series. “Lewis” maybe? I liked it a lot, though Endeavour most.
You are a remarkable human. Every time the world through your perception comes to me, I am grateful for it.
I do think our loved ones visit thru electronics. The portal is opened thru energy. The lamp my father sat next to when he visited blinks on and off at random times. Infrequently enough that I know it’s not a wiring issue. I think he’s letting me know his atoms are swirling ‘round. Thanks for sharing your life with us. Curlin.
i could’ve read 60 things. happy birthday. 🖤
(also, have you watched Heartstopper on Netflix? I’m so far away from my teens that it’s not relatable at all, but i love watching this sweet little uncomplicated teen romance unfold. in England! and everyone’s gay which sometimes feels like a stretch but also it’s so nice that i don’t really care.)
i also love that you got to spend time with your mother, in time bending space.
I have not watched Heartstoppers, but I have heard about it!
And you should watch Sex Education on Netflix. You can watch the first three seasons now and the 4th comes out in a few weeks.
I hate peas, too. I have tried and just can’t get into the “group nap” situation of Yoga Nidra. The dressing room lights/mirror is a brutality, too. I’m here in the present and (supposed to be) grateful (what a perfect way to say that) for all sorts of things. Your writing always leaves me wanting more.
There’s no group nap thing with my yoga Nidra. There’s a man’s beautiful bass voice and me, lying on my bed.
Ahhh, well that sounds better
36. Happy Valley
Saw it — amazing, amazing!
I’m home after a long emotional weekend sitting on my cool and breezy porch with seemingly no one around here on this beautiful world and I wish for you nothing but this kind of peace. 💚
Sending love to you and Sophie as you experience being 60 years old and everything leading up to that and 60 roses.
Yoga Nidra was introduced to me in the fall of 2007 and so I bought Richard Miller's book with CD and have benefitted from Yoga Nidra ever since. It is heartening to know you are benefitting from Yoga Nidra, too.
I recently rediscovered, on my book shelf, "The Old Woman and the Wave" by Shelley Jackson. It is a stunning piece of art in both story telling and illustration...and it's supposed to be a children's book! Not at all. It spoke to my soul and I am now that woman riding the wave off to "Away!" Or trying to be anyway. Nothing much else to do in this caregiving life but to trust and flow (and maybe be really tired....). Happy 60th. That little book might help a little bit.
That sounds wonderful. I'm ordering it pronto. Love to you and east coast Sophie.
Actually, I HAVE that book! Did you send it to me or maybe write about it years ago? I'm going to find it and re-read with Sophie.
It is possible. I've had the book for 25 years!
happy birthday, beautiful Elizabeth... may your words and great talent buoy you and your love for dear Sophie... with love, Louise
I too have gotten messages via my computer from a place beyond my understanding the first year or two after my husband died. Rarely now. But still comforting and mysterious and powerful. Carry on dear Elizabeth and Sophie.
Oh Elizabeth, so many thoughts and feelings on MY end. First up, watch 1883! (the prequel to Yellowstone--which I could not finish) with Tim McGraw and Faith Hill as pioneers. So gorgeous. I too watched all of Endeavor and loved it. Also, anything with Nicola Walker, but I love British crime shows, mostly because, very few to no guns, mostly psychological. Also, aging. We can all go on and on...and thankfully most of us do. (see what I did there?). Also, totally with you on politics these days. I. Just. Can't. The opportunist, smarmy Ramaswamy, the "see my practiced mug shot face former "guy", and the disgusting SCOTUS folks who can't get their ethics unwound from their...I won't write that last word here. But overall, I too and am looking for what is alive and beautiful in this moment. Heard a podcast/interview/ on the Hidden Brain with a guy who talks about strategizing vs. waiting for joyful things to happen. Worth listening to if you can, it's pretty recent. I love Shankar Vedantam...see, there is one cool human! And mostly I try to live in the poetry world. Have you read Arthur Sze's Sight Lines? Or Kate Farris' Standing in the Forest of Being Alive? if not, do. Ok, sending lots of flowers to you. xo
Thanks, Suzanne! I’ll look into your suggestions! And YES to Kate Faris’ poetry collection. I recently went to a reading in my neighborhood bookstore and heard her and her husband!
Also, it seems you've met my dear friend Louise!
I’m a Louise fan-girl and have been for decades.
I had Ilya as my workshop leader at Napa at this summer.
Since she died, I have received three notifications that mother left a voicemail. I took photos of two of them because how can that be. Love, Glimmer.
God, what a beautiful, long chunk of thoughts and feelings and observations and life. Thank you. Your #22 struck me hard. I would do anything to avoid going to a department store dressing room. Anything. The mirrors...the horror.
And your answer to where will I be in five years?
Absolutely. Don't know, don't care.
But all of this, Elizabeth. All of it.
Brilliant! Thank you. I’m a big fan of Patti too. I’m so glad you bought yourself roses. Happy birthday!
II’m just so happy to wake up to your writing. thank you.
It's always nice to read your writing, to see how you're doing, to reconnect with you. Do you think we'll ever meet? In real life? I hope so. I'm actually getting a passport this month, so who knows:)
My body has morphed into my mother's body, complete with strange lumps and bumps on my skin that I pick at. I'm with you on the whole, I think I can't do it anymore. I have a four year old, again, but it's the new dog that's killing me, or is that called transference?
You read much more erudite books than I do. The last good book I read was "Remarkably Bright Creatures" by Shelby Van Pelt. I fell in love with an octopus.
Take care Elizabeth, take care of yourself I mean. I turn 61 in a few weeks. WTF! I often forget how old I am until I see myself in a mirror. People see an old woman now, pushing Miss Katie's wheelchair. I've lived a lifetime now and it feels strange. So often it feels like things are on repeat. It's like, hey, I've seen this before, I know how this ends. It's a strange feeling.
Please visit.