Oh Elizabeth, I love you. May Sophie be well and safe and may there be grace, however scant it seems in this Burning Fucked Up World. May there be abundant grace for you.
Thank you for tearing yourself wide open and sharing the grief and the pain and the agonizing over this choice with the world. The cost of all of this - the experiences and the telling and re-telling of the stories over and over and the stupid questions people ask - is immense and unimaginable. I do so appreciate your willingness to swim around in that murky space of logic and fear and bring forth nuggets to hold up to the light for the rest of us to see. May you and Sophie be well, happy, and peaceful. May you be held. May you be healed. May you be transformed.
Thanks for sharing this - I have been struggling with the decision to vaccinate Bryn I am panicked about giving her the vaccine and also panicked about COVID. It is never easy and even though we do the best we can - it's incredibly painful to think you could be making a decision that could hurt your child - it's part of this journey that most people never understand - it's never black or white - we live in the gray - the decisions we make are never good versus bad - it's always bad or worse - and I'm always crossing my fingers that I've chosen the lesser bad thing. I wish I could love it all away.
Love to you and Sophie and thanks again for sharing.
you made a difficult decision after doing research, which you have always done so well to take care of your sweet girl. Sending you and Sophie love, and peace.
We always want to believe that there is a "right" path and a "wrong" path. That if we are smart enough we can figure out which is which. I see that Maureen has already made this observation and the wise statement that we live in the gray. This is true for all of us but the reality of it is more consequential for some people than for others. You are one of those. Sending love to you and your girl. Thinking of you as a warrior woman, forging your own path with the machete of research and poetry in one hand, a bright light of truth in the other.
Just now reading this profoundly impactful writing. "Heart wrenching" indeed; certainly the reading, but most of all, the lived experience that you convey. Much love to you and Sophie. I hope you are "being held."
My God, Elizabeth, this is momentous. The calculus involved in this almost impossible decision is literally death-defying, and now may Sophie be well, I believe she will be, Amen. This post. I can't even express how heart-rending it is, how terrifying. I am glad Sophie appears to have tolerated the vaccine. Brave woman, you, for making the hard choice.
Oh Elizabeth, I love you. May Sophie be well and safe and may there be grace, however scant it seems in this Burning Fucked Up World. May there be abundant grace for you.
Sophie will rock this. It was a terrifying decision. I believe You made the right one.
Thank you for tearing yourself wide open and sharing the grief and the pain and the agonizing over this choice with the world. The cost of all of this - the experiences and the telling and re-telling of the stories over and over and the stupid questions people ask - is immense and unimaginable. I do so appreciate your willingness to swim around in that murky space of logic and fear and bring forth nuggets to hold up to the light for the rest of us to see. May you and Sophie be well, happy, and peaceful. May you be held. May you be healed. May you be transformed.
Thanks for sharing this - I have been struggling with the decision to vaccinate Bryn I am panicked about giving her the vaccine and also panicked about COVID. It is never easy and even though we do the best we can - it's incredibly painful to think you could be making a decision that could hurt your child - it's part of this journey that most people never understand - it's never black or white - we live in the gray - the decisions we make are never good versus bad - it's always bad or worse - and I'm always crossing my fingers that I've chosen the lesser bad thing. I wish I could love it all away.
Love to you and Sophie and thanks again for sharing.
you made a difficult decision after doing research, which you have always done so well to take care of your sweet girl. Sending you and Sophie love, and peace.
It was a rock and a hard place, Scylla and Charybdis, not an easy choice. Sending love and hugs to you both.
And I cannot imagine the terror for you. Always sending love to you and Sophie......
We always want to believe that there is a "right" path and a "wrong" path. That if we are smart enough we can figure out which is which. I see that Maureen has already made this observation and the wise statement that we live in the gray. This is true for all of us but the reality of it is more consequential for some people than for others. You are one of those. Sending love to you and your girl. Thinking of you as a warrior woman, forging your own path with the machete of research and poetry in one hand, a bright light of truth in the other.
Sending you and Sophie so much love.
Just now reading this profoundly impactful writing. "Heart wrenching" indeed; certainly the reading, but most of all, the lived experience that you convey. Much love to you and Sophie. I hope you are "being held."
Thank you for this beautiful, terrifying, heart wrenching piece of writing, Love you both.
I can't say better or more than what everyone else has said -- thank you for sharing your impossible decision and all these thoughts.
My God, Elizabeth, this is momentous. The calculus involved in this almost impossible decision is literally death-defying, and now may Sophie be well, I believe she will be, Amen. This post. I can't even express how heart-rending it is, how terrifying. I am glad Sophie appears to have tolerated the vaccine. Brave woman, you, for making the hard choice.